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Friday, June 29, 2007

I'm Back

Hello again world!!!

All I needed was 75 more mg's of Effexor XR and the "Depressive Fog" in my brain and the depression weight on my body has been lifted.

I have walked 3 days in row. I've watered my outdoor plants 3 days in a row. I am singing to myself without realizing it. I am able to laugh and giggle with my kids. Life seems live - able. I am not kidding when I tell you that on Sunday if I could have "checked out" of my life without hurting those around me...I would have FOR SURE!!

But, now I'm back. I'm glad to back. Though be careful if you ask me to do anything...because I'm taking everything slow...I don't want to lose this feeling...so I'm going to try to live a simpler life...I may say NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love you all for the support you've shown me these last 3-4 weeks!! I'm here today BECAUSE OF YOU!!!

Love,
Betsy-depression SUCKS-Keln*ofer

posted by betsyjane at 9:38 AM

5 Comments:

  • Hey Betsy,
    I have some barbells that I need moved to the attic. Can you come over and do that, please?????

    (Just giving you some practice for saying... no!) :)

    By Blogger Chrissie, at 1:00 PM  

  • Yay Betsy!

    I love you!

    By Blogger Lindsay, at 2:37 PM  

  • I actually sat down and cried when I read this. When will we/the world etc. ever realize that this is such a REAL ILLNESS and how HELPLESS we are to handle it without professional help?

    Like I've said, I have my VERY down days . . . when life is meaningless and useless - and then the next day I'm fine! THAT is normal. There is no connection with THAT and what you are describing. I've known both kinds - with myself and with my loved ones -and there just isn't any FIXING this without help. (My help came from running away and going to Europe - not always an option)

    THANK YOU TO JOANNIE for finding your doctor and to YOU for calling and GOING and hanging in there, even if only for your loved ones' sake. WE NEED YOU BETSERS!

    You are right. . . WE could not face life WITHOUT depression if there were no Betsy. As I've said so many times, without Betsy I probably wouldn't be a teacher or a parent. You brought a whole new world of love into my life the day you were born and I LOVE YOU and so does everyone who knows you. . . well probably not EVERYONE. . . If THAT were true you wouldn't be doing anything worthwhile right?

    Take care sweet girl and enjoy this new found joy of the everyday world WITHOUT Clinical Depression. You deserve it! We all do. (SHAME on that stupid other doctor for not helping you sooner!) And again, THANK YOU for getting help.

    LOVE ya,
    Deboe

    By Blogger DebbieJeanLimon, at 5:24 PM  

  • Christine... ABSOLUTELY NOT!!

    Maybe Mom could do it???? (steve martin joke reference!!)

    Lindsay...your mom really helped me!!! She helped me realize how low I was and helped me find Mary!!!

    We are blessed to have such a caring, "not afraid to butt in when they need to" family.

    By Blogger betsyjane, at 5:25 PM  

  • Hi Deboe,
    We were typing at the same time. Let it be known that you called me TWICE that same day I was sitting with Joannie...I just wasn't up to discussing it again. Once with Joannie and then with Mary nearly wiped me out.

    You are wonderful Deboe!! I often think of you and how ANGRY you would be if I did something stupid like smoke or kill myself...and of course I think of my kids and the whole family and when push comes to shove...I don't want to die...I just want the hurt and pain to go away.

    For the record...I was feeling very good until 11:30 this morning...then I got a stomach ache and was a little hypoglycemic (even though I did eat breakfast) and I spent the rest of the afternoon in bed. Slept for 2 hours and watched an E-True Hollywood Story about the movie "Dirty Dancing".

    Anyway...there are no quick fixes...but there is a light at the end of the tunnel and I am glad to be "on the road again!!"

    By Blogger betsyjane, at 5:32 PM  

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